Somebody turn the lights on, somebody tell me what's wrong, i'd be lying if i told you, losing you was something I could handle

okay so its been a while...
kinda:]
ha ha so guess what.
i am so freaking sore.
ow!
i cant even believe it.
but here's what happened...i guess
i dont really remember this happening but apparently it did.
so at my indoor game on friday. we had one freaking sub.
ugh it was really frustrating ha ha its a good reason everyone had a good excuse for not going.
or else i'd be so mad.
but anyway.
i had the ball and it came off the ground and this chick pretty much kicked me in the stomach and i flew off the ground about to waist length and then hit the ground.
i remember falling.
i just didnt know i was off the ground that much.
crazy!
but anyway so i am super sore.
ha ha and then i went to Jenny's party ha ha
we watched the haunting of molly hartley
and i hate scary movies ugh me and kendra scream the loudest:]
always.
ha ha
so anyway but it was a really stupid movie and wasn't even scary.
well it was.
just after it was over i was thinking about it and it wasn't scary ha ha
i slept just fine:]
ha ha and then on saturday
i pretty much slept till noon:]
it felt sooooooo good...
till i woke up.
and then i felt the owwwness!
double uncool with knobs\:
and ha i had an outdoor game...
my first one of the year!!
and its co-ed...eh...
haha it wasn't that bad just different then indoor.
plus i was sore.
ha ha but we tied so anyway not too bad considering we were all "a little shaky" supposedly.
ha ha that was kinda rude i cant lie.
ha ha bill bill bill...
but anyway now its a lovely sunday afternoon.
ch.
not.
it snowed.
again.
\: it makes me sooo mad!!
geesh. i hope it melts soon.
i cannot wait for summer.

I candy-coat and cover everything but I'm still hiding underneath its been a long time...A thousand faces looking up at me hands all pointing to the

ceiling- oh what a feeling!! [:
i'm so happy.
ha ha!! i love it!!!
so but its late...
and i really should go to bed cuz i gotta get up early..
i am having a hard time trying to make myself thou..........................................
blah.
gosh i am just bored i decided.
everyone is asleep!!!
ch!
crazy.
today i had a meeting for tenth grade office...
eh...
ha ha [: we'll see.
and no soccer tomorrow i guess!! but i have a game on friday...
ugh...
just kidding i'm excited!

Hit the pavement and drive for the first time in a long time and pray that everything works out fine... so lets get moving, and lets get grooving

To every single word we've grown to know.
Ha ha[:
i am pretty happy right now except for the dang headache.
ch.
and english. oh my gosh.
who knew you needed so much mythology knowledge in your life?
ok so you probably dont.
ugh.
okay so i decided imma tell you a bit about each of my best friends!! Just for kicks ha ha
so you can be jealous!!
cuz i know you are[;
Let's start with Lyndsay!! [:
Lyndsay Ann is my very best friend in the whole world!! We have way too much fun when we are together ha ha. we know pretty much everything about each other (and i mean everything ha ha) when she was in the hospital and her mom was trying to give the nurse insurance information i had to help her with her address[: which i only know so that i can give it to the pizza guy which turns out to be pretty pointless as he can never find her house ha ha[:
we have done some pretty crazy things in our boredom ha and we have also made some weirdo plans (just in summary: Britain, minnie mouse ears) pretty much we are just the greatest friends i love her!! we play soccer together ha ha and we get pretty competitive against each other its kinda funny to watch. we also have some pretty amazing plans to go to disneyland for our sixteenth birthdays ha ha but i'm not sure if disneyland is ready for us and our mothers!! it could be a dangerous combination of ideas [; ohh! i just remembered something ha ha me and lynds are going on a road trip (supposedly) to st george when we can drive ha ha cuz she has never been i guess. i wonder if my dad will even let me out of the driveway on my own thou...i'm going to get crap for that line. ahem. anyway[: i've actually only known Lyndsay since seventh grade but thats okay we've made up for lost time[: uh...randomness but she just text me and said i had to help her with operation wet feet...ohh!! ha ha giggle giggle for her birthday i gave her a green pool and TONS of grape jello ha cuz its her favorite yeah ok lame i know what her favorite jello flavor is ha hahahaha i also know that she wanted to be the person dressed up as pocahontas at disneyland but couldnt be cuz she wasn't tan enough [; and she wants to be the guy at the jazz games that says twooo minutes ha ha!! [: but anyway yeah i gave her that jello pool we are having a serious fight this summer!! i'm excited!! anyway i could go on and on about me and my bestest frieeeenn but i wont because most of you already know us! plus it would take wayy too long to get through everything giggle giggle [:
Next Mykah Lyn[: i love this girly!! i have known her since fifth grade! ah ha ha we also have too much fun at our own expense i'm sad to admit ha ha we do the dumbest things!! but who cares its pretty much the funnest!! i can for sure be myself when i'm with Mykah ha ha it just all comes out!! i cant even help myself[: which is a good thing for sure!! ha ha we have had our ups and our downs but we are like most best friends we dont fight and if we do fight it is over the stupidest things but honestly the last time we fought was i think sixth grade ha ha long time ago when we were less mature hahaha!! oh my gosh memory i remember when me and Mykah and Trisha would sit at lunch and laugh soooo hard that the little kids would just stare and we'd always say- ha ha we are such losers we should be the examples! ch! yeah right!! [:
next is Kendra!! ha ha she is such a nerd. but dont worry thats a good thing ha ha [: we have way too many inside jokes i decided its hard to keep track of them!! ha ha as with all my friends i find myself laughing way too much when i'm with Kendra and we always laugh at the most stupid pointless things!! i dont know but we find everything funny!! its pretty great i've known Kendra since fifth grade also but we weren't like amazing friends till this year well we were then we weren't now we are ha ha but one of the first things i remember about kendra is she always wanted to push my cuticles back. ch. well that was the weirdest thing ever in fifth grade ha ha like seriously who does that [;
Then of course there's Haley Ann [: what is up with all of these cute middle names ha ha Kendra Denise[; anyway. Back to Haley. I love Haley!! Actually out of all these people i have known Haley the longest (barely) as she was in my fifth grade class actually ha ha and we had "secret friends" oh my gosh i am so embarrassed and i was Haley's and i totally hinted at it like every day of my life i'd be like oh look at what i got what did you get Haley gosh i could have winked or something and been more conspicuous! [: oh well thou i was in fifth grade for heavens sake give me some credit i thought i was being sneaky. anyway i love this girl soo much!! me and her have tons and tons of fun and when we're with Mykah ha ha the fun is out of control[: its pretty much way greatly amazing[:
last but definitely not least is dearest Alli[: iloooove this girl!! ha ha unfortunately i hardly ever get to see her cuz she goes to west point\: but its okay cuz we are both going to the same high school and we talk all the time!! [: we have tons of fun together ha ha and i've only known her since well this year!! in her spare time she enjoys knitting scarves to calm her anger...[; just kidding al. but seriously we pretty much party together ha ha!! by the way she is the one in the middle. in the cast. ha she is always hurting herself i swear[:
well those are pretty much only some of my best friends ha ha i love them all and they are all amazing[:

Sing it back to me this is your life story you didn't even know it you're trying not to blow it cause you're kicking back a death wish and here I

am just riding out the storm[:
Let me see you put your hands up on the stereo
It's spitting out a ridiculous frequency
But turn it up turn it up
Break a sweat
ha ha love that song boooyyy. roll with the punches
cause you know that it's inevitable
soon to be unforgettable, we're either calling it quits or you're calling me out
its not who or what you know because you're better with nothing at all.
i feel like singing for sure ha
no school tomorrow[: hurrah hurrah
and lucky Haley is in Disneyland!! daaaaaaaaannng!
so i am still sick\: ugh it is not fun friend not at all
i wouldn't recommend it! for reals for reals x 10! double uncool with knobs
ha ha mom tried to text me that the other night
she wanted me to bring home a movie me and lynds watched
giggle giggle
tell her thank you with knobs?
well personally i liked it. [;
ha ha! and we also watched the Rocker ha ha it was soo funny
ha i was laughing so hard he's all, do you think the beatles said to their parents ello mum ello dad may we have permission to rock the world for the rest of eternity? hhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaa!
i probably just killed that line so for those that have seen it
sorry ha ha
but it is funny!
oh so i got rid of the owl...yeah not cool!! ha ha i wasn't feelin it!
okay so i LOVE this picture ha ha i was lookin at my pictures and it made me laugh!!! (look at the picture of me and Lyndsay on the side column oh thing ha ha)
k cool[:
ohhh and in the rocker.
oh my gosh.
teddy geiger is amazingly beautiful ha ha!! no one else agrees with me but oh yeah.

da da da da
we on the phone like
da da duh duh duh duh!!
we takin pics like
da da duh duh duh duh duh!
she got my numba like
da da duh duh duh duh duh
duh duh duh duh duh
six seven eight triple nine eight two one two[:

Cuz we belong together now, yeah, forever united here somehow. You got a piece of me, and honestly:

My life would suck without you!!!(:
ok so i like this new background..
but i'm totally not feelin the owl there...eh...
its like- why are you here again?
just weird. ha ha
only now i can do the
whoot whoot said the owl thing ha ha
insider.
just kidding thou i dont think i can do that still.
cuz it sounds retarted...
yeah...
(:
i'm sooo happy! ha ha
i'm starting to feel better but this whole sickness thing is really bringing me down.
hopefully it goes away soon!
guess what?!
its gonna be sixty three degrees tomorrow!! yeah yeah yeah!!(:
i'm soooooooooooooooooooooo super excited for spring/summer/no school!!
and do you ever want me do you ever need me i know that you left before good bye but it's okay there's always another day[:
your voice comes in and now its fading- i cant believe this is so frustrating!! haha!
Maddie loves this song. yes she does.
ok just a question.
why does it matter what the low temperature is going to be tomorrow?!
for reals? ha ha the cinnamon police care apparently!! geesh!!
ok i gotta go watch american idol
adios!! [:

Shouldn't a light go on? Doesn't he know, that i've had him memorized for, so long.

Ha ha yesterday was amazing!
double cool with knobs!! for reals for reals x 10!
so guess what? two friday the thirteenths in a row and guess what else?
i scored on both nights ha ha i love friday the 13th!
its great stuff! i believe that is just a coincidence thou.
(: today is Courtney's birthday ha ha happy birthday!
la la la la la! ah yes i am really really happy!! this is crazy!!!
(: mmm...i gotta go to the store today!
i need to do my geography presentation...hehe!
giggle giggle.
yeah i have stuff to do!!!! ha ha ha ha!
i am so proud of our team!! (our name is crocodiles by the way hahahaha!)
love love love it!
we tied ah man we had that game ha we won it in my mind we definitely played better
but oh well i guess a tie is better than a loss...in some ways!
i cant wait for outdoor soccer thou.
phew indoor is not my favorite.
la la la la la
you say the sweetest things that i cant keep my heart from singing.
alone to the sound of your song- my stupid feet keep moving!!
-Stop this song (lovesick melody): by paramore!
i've come to far to come back from here!
but you dont have a clue, you dont know what you do...to me!
i love that song ha ha i am in the best mood!!
ah i guess i have to go get ready now as it is...twelve thirty almost.
he he

Let's not pretend like you're a lone tonight, i know he's there...I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor and ask my girl to dance....And She'll say

Yes...
\:
ha ha what the heck?!
i was so happy this week come on now!
i dunno today just kinda...
ehh...
yeah... oh well thou i guess. so imma try and be happier tomorrow
ha ha it cant be too hard today really was icky.
I dont know what was wrong with my feet at practice either.
they weren't connected to my brain.
ever had that problem?! yeah it sucks.
majorly.
ha so the ball wouldn't go in the net.
that's the other problem i was having.
ha ha i seem to have that problem a lot lately...
ha ha just kidding(: but really.
today...no.
not my favorite but what can you do ya know? i'll just have a really good day tomorrow.
Savanna wants me to come make cupcakes...ha ha with her and Diego(:
and me and Haley and Mykah are going to visit Tilly! I hope she starts feeling better!
and i'm excited. after my bad day and some time too cool down, hopefully, my feet will listen!! (: cuz i've got a lot of bad karma/mojo to take out on the ball(:

Aren't memories supposed to fade? What's wrong with my heart? Shake it off, let it go. Didn't think it'd be this hard.

Oh kkk
so pretty much haha i am way happy!
i dont even know what has gotten into me lately!!!
but its great!! (: la la la
ohhhh its 11:11! make a wish!! (i'll let you have a default wish since you probably aren't reading this at 11:11) lucky you!! ok
lets see...my wish...eh.
I WANT THE SNOW TO GO AWAY!!
yesss thats a good one!! lol
i cannot wait for summer i am so excited
what the heck?! ha ha nvm.
Anyway- i'm not even really doing anything this summer i'm just excited for school to be over and to sleep in and shoot.
speaking of sleep.
eh...
i should probably go to bed.
but...
eew! bed?! i dont wanna!!! ugh
lucky the good news is: ahem.
Tomorrow's thursday!! its almost the weekend this week has gone soooo fast!!
yay!! (: imma sleep in way late since i didn't last saturday. psh ch.
what a waste.
why did i even wake up?
oh yeah.
Kolten...err...i love ya but please don't text me till like i dunno two ish in the evening!
thanks ha ha jk kolten doesnt even know about this blog!
but oh well.
(: well...imma go be lame now.
so adios muchachas and muchachos!

I can't believe this is so frustrating. Cuz you never seem to understand. and you know we slipped straight thru your hands and how does it feel to be

A LONE!! (: lool another day by paramore.
Lool is laugh o o laugh(:
giggle
giggle
these are some pretty cute graphics here im not gonna lie(:
sorry i'm pretty much failing at life at this blog thing!!!
i am trying thou ha ha
so today, me and kendra made up our U in ed's class...
ha ha(: yay!!! no U's for us ha ha maddi on the other hand...
didn't come!!
crazy girl!!
so i have young women tonight!! an i'm so excited!
i dont even know i just am happy so its all good!!!
happy is amazing! for reals for reals times ten!
double cool with knobs!!
There's only...1 way
2 say
those 3 words
4 yooooooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
I LOVE YOU(: <3
lool ugh i am actually kinda frustrated today!
what is this madness we call boys?!
ha ha they are so moody.
i swear.
especially one in particular.
ha he would kill me if he knew i said that.
which is just one example of how MOODY he is being!
geesh!!

There's something bout the way- the street looks when its just rained there's a glow off the pavement you walk me to the car and you know i wont ask

you to dance right there- in the middle of the parking lot- yeah(:
i love that song!! awh!! i'm so happy! lool
check out more links i added to things that will make you smile.
hilarious.
truely.
(:

Ya i wanna feel the sunshine! Shinin down on me and you! When you put your arms around me- you let me know there's nothing in this world I can't do!

Haha!! This is great!!
Being happy is freaking.
amazing.
amazing.
(:
(deep sigh of contentment)
lol...
no comment.
anyway! i dont even know i dont even know why i'm so happy!
today was pretty boring i'm not gonna lie! we didnt do...well anything!
haha!! sigh sigh sigh!!! I feel like screaming and dancing and singing
its great!!
an i think imma do it(:

Someone call the doctor!! Got a case of a love bipolar! Sticato roller coaster! Can't get off this riiiiiiidddddeee!!

Haha!! I am so dang happy today!!
Its crazy really!
Hahaha what are you gonna do with your life today?
Well good question Maddie.
Nothing really.
Babysit mostly while Courtney gets her NAILS DONE!
Ha.......
(;
Haha personally i'd rather use a nail printer...lol a barbie one specifically...
kendra....
hahaha!!
ok so today the song of the day is....
My Life Would Suck Without You!!
or maybe the song of the week...since i seem to change favorite songs like, every day of my life....
i mean every week, of my life...
haha hahaha!!
Dang it i am so happy!!!!! Ha haha hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
you know when you just get the urge to scribble after you've been writing down a lot of
words and that story of little red riding hood,,, and something with a pumpkin comes into your head?
yeah this is like that.
only different...
haha!
If you ever need to be cheered up CALL ME
and i will sing
to you!
(:

I never wanted to say this, you never wanted to stay did you? I put my faith in you, so much faith and then you just threw it away.

Ugh.
I hate having a cold.
\ :
eew.
like,
hate it.